The Film's Conflict

Conflict

Although it may seem like Gordon, and Blair have accepted their current lives and moved on from their differences, there still seems to be a conflict between them. Some underlying force they both understand, but don’t seem to talk about. Gordon knows he should see his brother more, and Blair knows that he should have been closer and more part of the family. So why don’t they do what they know they should do?

These two men come from an entirely different generation then today. It was generation where men rarely talk about their feelings toward/to other men; a generation where it was not only looked down upon to be gay, but even more dreadful to get HIV. Now as I look at their relationship today, I see a hole there that has now trickled down to the rest of the family; It all starts at the top.

In a time where families are separating, ours still holds together, but without one who devotes his nightly thoughts and prayers for all of us. Yet, we live our lives without taking the time to call him up, or send him a card. At the same time, Blair is part to blame as well. He has lived all over the place. He put himself in a position to be distant. The gap needs to be closed regardless. And if it can’t, maybe a bridge can be built across. This film will bring Gordon, and Blair together alone to talk about what has occurred over the years, and what should change if anything.

But, there is another conflict outside of all this. That is the fact that I, as the director, continue to have doubts that this is whole concept is made up in my head. That I am searching so desperately for a documentary topic, I have slowly perceived things differently then any other. I look at the perspective that Blair is just an Uncle to my Dad, and his three brothers. To the average family Uncles don’t seem to be a significant member, but as I, and the rest of my family’s younger generation, have known all our Uncles so well, it just seems out of place. For once, maybe I bit off too much to handle.